again

i am a fool for second chances

helplessly hypnotized by rose tinted glances 

twirled around by your manipulative dances

only to spin out of your grasp nauseous

dry heaving your betrayal onto cement

left wasted again by your lament 

you try again

scavenge up what love you can amend

pry open the door to my heart with the appeal of being friends

i am naive enough to welcome in a stranger

dumb enough to not bat an eye at danger 

redirected love feels better than anger 

there is nothing to gain

in the word again

i count my losses and scrub out your stains

i mourn the lost time 

and stitch up the holes you carved inside

a plant i watered just to watch curl up and die 

again, you come back to me 

begging on your knees 

prodding my heart, pleading please

second chance, you expect a third?

repeating patterns i never deserved 

again, i will never return