girlhood
i hate the way my skin feels against my clothes
feminine fabric and secret oaths
like wearing lacy thongs
pink paranoia that only i know.
the male gaze has no eyelids
it never blinks or sleeps
it knows my skin and loves to creep.
undressing in the bathroom mirror
feels like a performance
to all the voices i hold dear
words that kiss away my questions
and make me feel real
my worth intertwined with sex appeal.
oh to cut the cameras
and to see myself as more
anything but to be trapped in this girlhood chore.