left alone in lab

fuck wafting, i am smelling every carcinogen

cinching my nose hairs until i release my head back 

floating like helium 

leaving my lab coat behind

as i defy gravity ascending through the atmosphere

the cheap plastic of my safety glasses 

bounce across the lab bench

as i rip off their obstruction

fogging up my vision

divine blind precision guides my hands 

i undress the chemical condom

suffocating each finger with sweat 

swirling the wet solute that tickles my fingertips

raw sex with the elements

returns me to my curiosity reborn 

i pour a potion of poison

until my child mind is satisfied 

with the precise concentrated shade of purple 

a princess would drink before the ball

i dip my tongue in to taste the tang

my ears rang with each clink of glassware

bumping beakers like the cheersing 

of a cold beer shared between boys

who are allowed to be scientists

stronger than hydrochloric acid 

after im satisfied i strip naked

documenting my feelings in my lab notebook

making sure to balance the coefficients

i crank on the safety shower that runs red from rust

accumulated from being unused for years

by scientists gripped by the fetish of the mind

whom find safety in sterilized paths

predestined and unquestioned

void of all sensation 

to prove a point to their company in lab